There is a lot going on right now.
And I'm still sick, so things all kind of feel like a hazy dream.

My feelings are really hurt right now. And I know he didn't mean to hurt them. Just like how those people at the dance didn't mean to hurt them. So I have all this anger and hurt that I can't direct at them because I know they didn't mean it. So guess who it gets directed towards? Me. 

Of course.

So what can I do with this...hm.
Well, I can get ready for the show in December (well, not right now, but when I get better) and put all that anger and frustration into determination to do my best. And I can go get my hair dyed again, since the pink and red are definitely starting to fade right now.
That would make me feel better, I think.

I don't know how to ask him if he thinks I'm beautiful no matter how much I weigh. Do I want to know?