Spencer wants the movie Wall-E and a Wii for his wedding presents. He said to come in black, black is the color scheme for the wedding. I can't help but feel that's appropriate. He's really doing it. I keep waiting for the phone call to come saying the the wedding's off, they had a falling out. Because I can't help but feel that there's no way it could really work out like that. Just like that.

I think I ate pretty well today. I got Taco Bell and ate all of that, and I don't know...no confusing or upsetting feelings about that. Probably because I had just gotten done with about two and a half hours of belly dancing and it felt good to re-fuel my body. It felt more instinct than shameful or hard to do. I wish I could always eat at times like that...when I'm tired and have had a good work out. It makes me feel so productive. 

I really want to go to the beach. By myself, I think.
I think it would be really nice.

"You, beneath the bed, I know all your tricks

I've seen you watching

I've seen you drifting away

Seen you falling along

I've seen you disappear


There ain't a cloud in sight

Look through the snow and the branches

I can count all your teeth

Yeah I can count all your teeth

Now the bed's on fire and the ceiling's gone

And your mom and dad still sing the same old song

Don't scare me off now, I'm your only friend

Don't scare me off now, I'm your only friend


Now you're drifting away

Now you're falling along

I've seen you disappear

I closed my eyes and saw my father's sins

They covered me like a second skin

I peeled them off and sure I bled it in

And now I'm free to sink my own damn ship

I cut the bridge down from my family tree

To start a fire in the living room

Now the house is just ash this time it's sink or swim


Let the river in

If blood is thicker than water

Then let the river in

We might drift away, but we've got thick skin


Let the river in

If blood is thicker than water

Then let the river in

We might drift away, but we'll find our way again"