It seems like an unhealthy cycle to me. This is what I've noticed I do: eat healthy and try really hard...until I get to a certain weight or size that I consider ugly on me, and then I get back into unhealthy habits until I lose it...so I feel guilty for messing up and start all over again. Repeat.

It's sad when you begin to realize how predictible you are. I'm really not kidding when I say I can't wait for this month to be over. The show will be over, the first few weeks of school will be over, everything will be...moved on from a little. I want to put some distance between myself and my life for a moment and just live, not run errands and make appoitments.