We went out for Taco Bell and I so got three tacos and ate them and kept them down, and figured out some way of not feeling too guilty or anything. I feel good about myself because it shows I can do something right for myself. And of course we had bellydancing today, tribal class. I think I did really well and it makes me really proud of myself. The whole hour was just dancing and a review because it's the last class of level one. I got to lead three times and it was great, I felt awesome and I did a really good job, if I do say so myself. I could see it in Ilea's eyes that I did well. And not in a crappy, psycho way...like she smiled at me and said "great" and that we're the best class she's ever had in tribal. And an old student was there in class and she seemed to be impressed so I'm just happy that I could do it. I really can do something if I want it. I never imagined I'd be able to dance like how I do now. Of course, I have soooo much room for improvement but it's a start. It's amazing considering where I used to be.

I don't want to think about anything else right now. I'm just going to wrap myself up in this feeling and hide from everything else if that's okay.