I did eventually purge a little bit of what I ate last night, which is disappointing but it could have been worse. Long story short, I became very depressed last night around eleven p.m. I was in major need of a hug, I guess you could say. I didn't know what to do; I couldn't sleep. I wanted to just disappear and not feel, I felt ugly and extremely obese.

I'm feeling better this morning. Missed school yet again. My mom called and said she tried to shake me awake several times but it didn't work, I didn't even open my eyes which worried her. So she's going to call the doctor about my meds right now because her and I are both pretty certain that they're keeping me from getting up.

I don't know what I'm going to do if this stuff doesn't work. I guess deal with it on my own. I don't really know what's wrong with me, the world seems so weird right now, like everyone's walking around on some other planet and I feel oddly nothing at the moment. I have no idea, it's getting old and depressing.

So anyway, I have to work tomorrow so I hope I'll be in a better mood, I think it will be good for me to get out and contact more people. I'm on excellent terms with my friend Claire now, we hadn't been talking for so long and now we are. I had a banana and TWO bowls of cereal this morning so I feel bloated yet suprisedly content about it.

And that's about it until something else happens to shake my world around.