I've had it with these people. I try to be how they want me to be because everyone bases their emotions on what I do or say.

I tried to be there and be nice for Claire, she's decided to explode at me, say she's sorry she's not good enough for me and that I just must not care about her and blah blah blah, woe is me.

And then I tried to write Ned because I never know what to do in this kind of situation, and of course, he ignores the message.

And then I get angry/depressed letters from Jessie that I'm not talking to him enough and can't I see I'm hurting him and poor him bla bla bla, woe is me.

And then when I don't say the right thing, same thing from Ceslie.

They act like this and then get all angry when I don't get close, when I don't tell the truth, maybe it's because they've given me a reason not to trust them! Maybe it's because I've learned from things like this that if I were to be honest and open up and say what I mean, and not put on a show to make them happy, then they blow up at me and turn themselves into the victims.

Poor everyone else. Poor, poor them. And they all keep saying, "Sorry I can't be a good enough friend, or that I'm not perfect!" what about me? What are you expecting me to be?