I feel great right now! But I don't think it's a good thing...I'm not even going to lie...I may have abused some caffeine pills around six this morning. Still not sure why. Still not sure why I'm intentionally staying up even more past these twenty four hours I've been up. Not really sure how I feel.

Some stuff happened, pretty seemingly insignificant stuff. I don't know.
I'm going to have to write about this later when I get my thoughts sorted out.
It makes me really sad that I feel so optimistic right now, now that I'm not dealing with things on my own.
I feel really bad even though I didn't even do very badly....I still feel really guilty. BUT, it's almost been like a month or two so I really think that that's progress?
Or I'm lying to myself as usual. I think something's wrong.