It seems like an unhealthy cycle to me. This is what I've noticed I do: eat healthy and try really hard...until I get to a certain weight or size that I consider ugly on me, and then I get back into unhealthy habits until I lose it...so I feel guilty for messing up and start all over again. Repeat.

It's sad when you begin to realize how predictible you are. I'm really not kidding when I say I can't wait for this month to be over. The show will be over, the first few weeks of school will be over, everything will be...moved on from a little. I want to put some distance between myself and my life for a moment and just live, not run errands and make appoitments.

Today was good for eating, I think. I got a lot done, bought a bunch of fabric for costumes for the show...which is stressing me out to no end.
I'm feeling too tired and on the run to slow down and acess this situation and how I feel.