Everyone's gone. Summer is over, I guess. But when the sun is still so bright and everything...I don't really feel like calling it over. I need a vacation somewhere. That's silly, but I do.
When I went back to school last year with my friends everyone was all concerned when they saw me. I was thin and so close to some sort of goal.
Now everyone else is going back and I'm bigger than I've ever been in my life.

I keep seeing stupid pictures of her everywhere. All of these people who are my friends have pictures of her on their myspace. She's supposed to be really cute and fun to be with. And she's from Arizona too. I just want to punch her and hurt him. Get out of my life.

I found the elevator guy on myspace. Don't ask me how, but I did it. I added his friend instead who seems like less of a lady's man and more of a nice guy. We're having a conversation right now. Last night I was so excited about finding them. But now that I see that they're just normal people with normal lives who work and go to school and have to get up every day and do the same thing, I feel empty. They can't save me from anything. They can't make me free from myself. It's supposed to be me. This sucks.