Even though my naval piercing is still healing, I gave in last night and took a bath instead of a shower for the first time in over a month. I figured I didn't care if it got infected, I really needed it. So I scrubbed the tub, cleaned my piercing well, ran a bath and poured sea salt and epsom salt into the water and got it. Holy crap, I had forgotten how much a steaming hot bath clears my head and calms me down, I could have stayed there for hours, just thinking, or more like...letting my thoughts do what they will.

When I woke up this morning, my piercing was fine...in fact, it's better than ever.

I feel frustrated a lot because when I get on the phone with friends, I feel like I have so much to say, but I don't want to talk. I don't know where to begin, and I have no patience or strength to explain what's going on inside right now. It's not that no one would understand or that it's even that big of a deal, but I'm always afraid that they think that I don't want to talk. I just need some patience dealt towards me too, I guess.

I'm so tired and I just want to sleep all day. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.
I wish sometimes that we didn't have to eat, that food didn't exist and that we got our nourishment some other way. Things would be so much easier.