I think I am too critical of myself. I know I am way too critical of myself.
I am at a place where I can be healthy, I can do that. But I am still stuck in a place where every other thought is on food or weight or my body. I am constantly putting myself down for everything, and everything I do wrong somehow ties back into not being thin.
It's really hard to deal with, but I know for certain that I'm not over some things that have happened in my life. I'm not over them and I feel like I'm walking around with a million ghosts holding onto my neck and shoulders.
I'm always stressed out about everything. I don't know. I'm getting my G.E.D. in August, and tomorrow I go to call backs for that audition. The words don't sound right when I say them and they don't feel natural. I don't know if I want this or not.