I'm extremely busy all the time, and experiencing a lot of guilt towards the acts of sleeping and eating. I let myself do them but that is the key word here: "let" myself. I should be doing what I need to do when I want to without feeling like it's this great, big painful deal. I feel like someone is watching me all the time and shaking their head when I do things, and it makes me feel embarassed and ashamed and it's really getting on my nerves.

I have yoga tonight, and I've been on the internet all day looking at ideas for choreographies.

I guess Markus got married. I also have discovered that I need a job soon because I have no idea how long the shop is going to stay open. We went to half days but soon we may have to close. Which is embarassing because I don't want people to think that we're sad about it, we're poor, or that we couldn't do it. It's stressing my mom out way too much and she's wondering if maybe she needs a break.

Claire has cut off all contact with me and I think she may have even blocked me.
Uh, and I have been listening to the ablbum "We Don't Need to Whisper" all day. It's pretty good.

I don't know, this is a very boring post. There's nothing to eat here, and I'm glad because I don't want to conflict right now. I don't.