So my period is still doing that thing where it only lasts three days or less. It's kind of frustrating because I feel like I'm doing things right as best as I can so it should be normal for once. Of course, I know these past couple of days have not been fantastic, as far as eating goes. Mostly because of stress and everything. I just for once want a normal, full length period so I can feel like I'm doing something right.

Sunday was a bad day because I was really upset about some things. I kind of snapped for a moment there, but I've been doing that a lot lately, just not in front of people. Mostly freaking out all the time, which is embarassing. I don't know, I threw a lamp and attacked my sister and stormed off. All I saw was red and I went into the bathroom and threw water on my face and sat down on the floor and tried to breathe. I don't remember why I was so upset. I just remember that I felt like I was being suffocated and I just saw red and felt like I was being controlled. It's just really lame because I think my little sister hates me and/or is terrified of me. I don't want to talk about that or the guys or the eating to my therapist. I have an appoitment with him this week. I'm just...argh, embarassed and frustrated like I've heard it all before.

I had a slight relapse earlier this week where I did not do well at all for about three days. A lot of mess ups. A lot that I'm not ready to talk about right now without getting upset at myself for how bad I got. I don't know. Life goes on.

Class tonight was amazing for many reasons, I'll get into that later though. I have some days and nights to get back in order in my internal clock.