I am taking this all very slowly. Very slowly. My feelings are all twisted around so I'm not sure how to tell anyone how I am doing right now. I want my body to stay right where it is right now. I feel good this way. I don't feel like I'm so disgusting and I just hope for once I can do something right and keep this weight where it is, if it's healthy for me. Please be healthy for me.

Hafla again tonight. It was fun and a good time just like all haflas are supposed to be. I bought a tribal kuchi choker and two CDs. I'm very excited to put them to good use. I'm at a point where I wish I could just wear my belly dancing outfits all the time. They're the only thing in my closet I feel beautiful in. That's strange because they're so revealing and at first made me so self concious. But now they're just so homey and relaxing for me.

I am going to go see the Vagina Monologues Sunday. I am so glad that I'm getting to do all of this because I feel it's a great way to celebrate the month of March (Women's History Month). I'm planning on reading only female authors this month and to pay homage to every woman I know. I just wish I could get all my friends into it. The best way to celebrate this month would be to love ourselves and to do healthy good things for our spirits and our bodies.

I am going to work tomorrow bright and early. I will see Kaitlin there. I will see Ben there. And somehow I'll just keep moving.