The eating habbits have been fine the past three days. I'm behaving like a normal healthy person who has no disordered eating. No physical problems. So as far as anyone knows, nothing is wrong.

I think that I'm deeply infatuated with someone at the moment. And unfortunately I'm getting suicidal at the drop of a hat nowadays. Fortunately, it hasn't ever lasted long enough for me to do anything about it. My sense kicks in, and my total disagreement with suicide never lets me feel like that very long.

I feel empty right now. I'm off meds again, and suddenly things are becoming sicker and clearer. All the same.