Last night I got all really inspired to try and change people's  minds about how they percieve themselves. I posted all of this inspirational stuff about being more self confident. I feel stupid because I binged and purged right after and I felt really hypocritical.

Oh, good news. No purging today so far! I am way, way fat and gross, but I think I'm getting healthier because of it. I went to Olive Garden today and had some whole wheat pasta and it's been so hard but I haven't thrown up any of it yet. I think I've gained weight, I know I've gained weight...god. But it's okay, it is.

Okay, the truth is I'm totally panicked about this, but yeah. One step at a time.