I just had an apple, and I'm mulling over my thoughts right now. Last night my mom told me that she couldn't afford to let me keep seeing my dietitian and specialist. She offered to find some other way for me to see someone. I told her that was okay, and I didn't want to. She started arguing with me about how I can just see nobody because I am sick and I have a problem. I told her that I didn't and she shook her head and said that getting me help wouldn't work if I didn't want it anyway, so okay.

I don't know...I'm calming down now that I don't have all these people to report to and all these rules to follow, I feel more in control. But it's a scary feeling, to know that everyone's just releasing you back into the world on your own again. I don't know what to do with myself.