and I put my waist length hair in a ponytail and cut it off last night. I was freaking out, wanted to take scissors to my skin, wanted to feel something. So I cut my hair instead. It's terribly uneven and just cut badly so I'm going to the salon to get it fixed on Thursday. I felt so better after I cut it, I couldn't stop laughing, I guess I probably sound like a crazy person. But I was so happy because see, I felt elated and good and I just felt something and it was nice.

So I was all of the sudden craving crackers like madly today, so I ate some. I'm kind of upset at myself so I'm staying out of the kitchen, that place always triggers me to starve/purge/binge and whatnot. Thanks for reading the madness. I'm doing okay, just moving on.